There's been a lack of posting because of some stuff going on including my mother's birthday but I'm here today. I couldn't really think about anything to really write about because I'm actually insanely tired and just drained of everything. My body just feels really weird today and I keep getting random small pains in different areas of my legs and overall I just want to sleep and forget about everything and not feel for a little while. I need a dog dammit. A dog I can just run upstairs to my room after school and cuddle with and watch Netflix with and just forget about everything with. Speaking of Netflix, I've been absolutely obsessed with the show White Collar recently (I need Mozzy in my life omg) it's cheesy and stupid sometimes but I can't get enough of it. yeeee. Woah, no way "L-O-V-E" by Nat King Cole is playing. <3 I really wish I was born in that jazzy, carefree, happy era of America. That would be incredible. So on to the title of this post, talent. God, I wish I had some. In anything. Turns out there is absolutely nothing that I have true talent in. Maybe I haven't come across is yet, but I can't think of anything I haven't tried that I might be good at. Basically, I such at everything and I turn around and people are doing things with ease that I couldn't do in one hundred years. Today in Biology my friend was drawing and writing in calligraphy and doing all these artsy things in five seconds. It would take me about 5 hours to do everything she was doing. I was sitting there wanting to smash my head against the wall after thinking about anything that I have that sort of talent at at, which was nothing. I need to find something that I am naturally good at and I need to find it fast. I only have three years of high school left to figure out something that I should probably do with my life. Time is ticking away and each day is just another twenty-four hours of wondering what life is. Nothing would make me happier than finding a talent that I love doing. Sports, singing, intelligence in a certain subject, or anything.  I need to find a stable group of friends, a loving boyfriend, more followers on my tumblr , good grades, long dreams, iced mountain-dew, a family that isn't breathing down my neck all the time, a talent, and an extra curricular activity that I enjoy. That would be life.
More later.