Welcome to the blog. 

these are streams of consciousness that i never read back or edit before i publish! 
i've been writing on here since i was like 14 so be wary as you scroll that my miserable teenage self is present on this page. 

  (still experimenting with my font size) enjoy.

How Do You Know?

September 8, 2010
Hey its Heather. I was just reading this book about a gay guy and his life. Its called Totally Joe. You would think reading a book about a gay 8th grader would be totally stupid..and gay, but it really makes me look at gay guys another way. Now, I am so NOT saying that I am totally cool with gay guys but...well its complicated. Read it and you will know what I am talking about. Okay now to the point.
This is a question that I have kind of been asking myself for a long time. How do you know if you like a guy? I have had crushes and then got over them and I don't know if I like a guy. Okay maybe a couple of guys. See the problem is how do you like a guy? Like, if you really like a guy do you give up on him? Do you get a feeling? Is it like a warm feeling or like a big shock feeling. I really need help, please email me and tell me your answer. Guys are so hard to figure out. Its all like you like em then it goes away and then you like someone and it goes away. And now I don't know if I like a guy or not. When I am around him/them I am too busy trying to figure out if I like them or not, I get all confused and don't know how to act. How do you know if you like a guy? Email me! Peace! <3 :D -Heather
 

Love, Hate

September 5, 2010
Hai! Heather here. :D I just want to say a big thank you, first of all, to all the people that read this blog because my whole life revolves around my friends so thanks for being there :D
Do you have a love/hate relationship with any of your friends? I definitely do. Its hard because sometimes you love 'em sometimes you hate 'em. My friends and I are a never ending novel of ups and down, written by fate. I had a friend over for a sleepover yesterday and this morning and I am getting into realizing that sometimes I love her, sometimes I dont. Its like that with all my friends here. (If you are in Arizona right now then your safe cuz I love ya ALL DA TIME <3) Maybe its just that all my real friends (i hate to say that) are in Arizona and maybe I am telling myself that it can never be the same as what it was in Arizona. D: I got a text yesterday from a very important person that has played in a big role in the whole 'moving' part of my life. I haven't talked to him in like a year so I had a warm spots in my stomach whenever I heard the familiar text ring-tone. :D LOVE YA! Peace! <3 :D
-Heather
 

So Different...

September 1, 2010
Hey! Heather here. First of all I don't have a crush anymore. I don't know I am just not feeling it anymore lol :D K anyway I am basing this off of what a very good friend said to me this morning.
7th grade is so much different than 6th grade. New teachers, new friends, and most importantly a new character. In 6th grade your are just getting used to middle school. At the end of 6th grade we all thought that we had all our friends picked out, all our friends were there forever. We all thought we had our lives planned out and we knew what was going to happen in 7th grade. We were happy, we were anxious, we were excited. Then 7th grade came. We are so used to having our best friends in our classes, its hard to find a spot to settle this year. There are different teachers, different focuses. Guys voices change and drop down low, and girls start to feel more comfortable in their bodies. But the friends we once had are now slowly fading away from us, opening up spots for new friends. But seeing how 7th grade is, we are all dreading 8th..
<3 :D -Heather
 

Gummy Bears!

August 30, 2010
Hey! Its Heather. Have any of u checked out http://kidzworld.com yet? well you should its totally awesome. Tell me when you do. Anyway last night was movie in the park night so I went and sat with Sonya Mona and Lee it was awesome. "Up" was playing so it was adorable. And today I spent the day with Hannah and Jennifer and Emma we played outside and roller bladed and stuff, then went into Hannah's house it was soo much fun.Hannah's got this swing on her front porch which hangs from the ceiling and you run up with in onto the chair and when it swings back you jump (basically you are free falling for like 3 seconds) and you land on the swing thing and your swinging. :D You don't know how fun it is until you try it! Haha. Anyway,  Emma got us Gummy Bears so we split em up and now we are the Gummy Bear Club! LOL It is soo awesome and since the kidz are like 6,7,8,9,10 or whatever years old its like goin  back in time and you are a little kid again. I love hanging out with Hannah and Emma and my sister. It makes me feel so young and actually..its really fun. Well I think we are going to Trader Joe's tonight and then it will be school tomorrow. I kinda like school kinda don't. I sound like a little kid when I say that but its true. (by the way, never give up on being a kid) Its like you love the social part (well..sometimes) but you get so overwhelmed by the social part that the educational part sucks. Peace! School Status: In it! <3 :D -Heather
 

School Has Started Hallelujah!

August 27, 2010
Did I spell Hallelujah right? Hey Heather Feather here. :D I am soo happy school started and I am sorry I didn't post last few days like I said I will be really busy so I probably won't post a lot D: But the good thing is, when I do post I will probably post something interesting..well to me anyway. Okay, so lets get started! First day of school SUCKED  I have to admit. I don't know why I guess just getting used to my classes and stuff. I just didn't have a good feeling inside of me. My first class, Science, is fine. It is a little boring but I guess I am just too tired to focus on what is happening. LOL English was ok.... it is kind of boring too but my teacher is nice too its more fun than Science but whatevzzz Ok so third period I have Dance P.E. which I am gonna go into a whole new story now so here it is: First day was a little weird because the teacher is pregnant so she is having this sub for the whole 1st semester until she gets back. Next, the second day I got my locker combo and I couldn't get it to open so I was extremely frustrated. Third day, today, I got a new locker combo, (thank god huh Kylie? lol :D) then I had to go get a new sweatshirt that I didnt get last year ( D: ) somewhere along the mist of that I got in trouble by the sub because i didnt ask to leave the room ( ????? that really confuses me) anyway 4th period I have Mr. Knoll ( not saying anything) and I  CANNOT believe he assigns us 2 essays in PRE-ALGERBRA! I mean common its math not English! 5th period I have Drama 1 WOOHOOO!!! Omg this is my fav period! We have to memorize the Jabberwocky and create our own story to it which is extremely fun I LOVE drama! Ok this is getting really long...6th period is Mr. Mrray he is awesome but the class is kinda boring since it is SSR/stupid advisory. 7th period (social studies)  is Coach. Heath who ROCKS! It is good to have him in my last period and my crush is in that class so i'm super happy with the end of the day. :D wow this is really long..I have probably been boring you out so I will save the rest for my next post. Peace! School Status: in it! <3 :D -Heather

 

School Tomorrow

August 23, 2010
Hey hey its Heather again. I just came back from a Chinese resturantito!! Ooooooh it was yummy!! School is tomorrow! YAY!!! Finally!! I should go to bed because I am gonna be super tired in the morning D: Ugh here I go.... I want school to start already!!! Wish me luck tomorrow! Well... Peace! School Status: TOMORROW!!!!! <33 :D -Heather
 

Ughh HURRY UP TIME!!!!

August 22, 2010
Hai!! Its Heather. OMG I want school to start so bad but I am completely dreading it in some ways..Such as not having my friends in most of my classes D: Ha, whatevzz I'll hang with other people. I can't believe I got Mr. Knoll for PreAlgerbra!! I am not saying anything on the Web about him because I will probably get in trouble so all I'm saying is AHHH MR. KNOLL!!!!!! Anyway I am so anxious for school to starrrrt!!!! Can time just hurry up and start school already!!! Its like the last few days of summer vacation are so dreadingly long! Today was a million hours long and I still have one more day!! I was so bored today that I packed my backpack for AOMS on Monday. So basically I will have nothing! to do tomorrow. Ugh this is so maddening!!! I am twitching with boredness!! (how am i twitching with boredness?) I talked to Kira today and there was like nothing to talk about because we need stuff from school. Haven't seen my crush in three months!! We need something to talk about. **I just want to let you know that I probably won't post as much when school starts but I will post as much as I can!!      Soccer practice was so fun yesterday although we haven't come up with a team name. Anne Marie has awesome ideas but our coach probably won't put them in.  I was just searching stuff on Google today and I came up with a site called http://kidzworld.com It is just something I did when I was bored so you should check it out...If your bored and have nothing to do. Well I think thats it for now. I will probably post tomorrow :D Please post people!!! Nobody has posted in a LONG time (except for Tatum) and I really want to hear bout ya! School Status: 1 DAY!!!!!!!! :D    Peace! <33 :D -Heather
 

School Schedule

August 20, 2010
Hey people its Heather Feather :D I got my schedule for 7 grade yesterday and this is it:
1. Cowan, Science 7
2. Martin, English Adv
3. Borders, Dance P.E 1
4. Knoll, Pre-Algerbra Adv
5. Emert , Drama 1
6. Murray, Advisory
7. Heath, Social Studies
I am so happy about most of my classes ( especially Drama1 because Ms. Emert is the best teacher in the world!! And I really wanted Drama so YIPPEEE!!) The only thing is is that I don't have alot friends in my classes.  Like one of my best friends is only in my Drama class and it goes on with a ton of my friends who are not in my classes so Im kinda freaked out about that... Anyway school starts on Monday so I'm super excited :D Summer gets boring after a while so at least school will be..hmm..exciting (??). Okay so I have soccer practice today which I do not want to go to ( idk why i just dont feel like it) but anyway I have to put in a name for my team and I am leaning towards the Chimichangas more so than the Wild Raccoon Butterflies...I think I will just go with the Chimichangas. Yeah okay.I am really bored. I am so not a calling person but right now I want to talk to somebody so someone please call me (thats how bored I am)!! Oh yeah after soccer practice we need to go see who Jennifer's teacher is. Can you believe there's only 2 5th grade teachers in her school!! Last day of non-school Fridays! School Status- 2 more days!!!   Fold like a Moon!! Peace!  :D <33 -Heather

 

Do I have to title this?

August 17, 2010
Hey Heather here. OMG schoolz almost here crap! Okay so anyway went to Knotsberry Farm on Friday and it was really fun. Best ride: Xelerator  (or however you spell it). Saturday was the pool party for my soccer team before we start the season which was extremely fun. <333 On Sunday Kira and I (and Kai and his friend Derek..Devon? whatever no its Derek!) saw Step Up 3D which was AH-MA-ZZZZZING!!!!! Go see STEP UP it is amazing! I love it. <333333 It is one of my favorite movies.  Today was soccer practice was fun but boring..lets see if Jenna can remember my name next time (hint** trampoline, Jenna!). So I am going to registration tomorrow with Kira should be fun to see everyone. I have to remind myself to call people when I get my schedule. K I feel really wierd right now because I think the only one who really looks at this site is Tatum ( and maybe some people here in Carlsbad...maybe) so thank you Tatum!!! So basically I feel like this site is a fail but I am gonna keep doin it! 'Cause I aint no quitter! Maybe I should start posting on my old blog..nah yeah anyway go listen to Not Afraid by Eminem cuz it is now my FAVorite song! :D Ill try to be on chat tomorrow morning but I might not in the afternoon because Kira and I have been sleeping over at eachother's houses on and off for a long time so i dont know if we will have a sleep over tomorrow...=D I have a new page called Status so check that out its like whenever I go on I will post a bunch of things about how I am feeling and what I am doing and stuff like that so check itzzzz!! Peace! :D <3 -Heather
 

Colorado

August 13, 2010
    ~Hey people its Heather. I have not been posting for the last weekend because I have been in Colorado! WOOHOO!! I love Colorado. We stayed with some friends instead of staying in a hotel which was cool. We went riding and hiking and all that stuff so it was fun. One of the days we drove up to Mount. Evans which is like 14,000 feet up and then we hiked up to the very top where you climb up a huge boulder and look over the edge which is so freaking scary! Its like your praying your clumsiness won't kick in and you won't fly off the top and die! LOL! It was cool though. But on the way back we were literally in a cloud so you couldn't see anything and im serious, anything!! I have no idea how my dad could see as we drove down that stupid mountain with a sheer 10,000 feet drop on the left. Anyway my stupid camera dies the second I turn it on when we got there (just like 6th grade camp in April) so i cant show you guys any of the pictures I took of the whole trip because I had to use my moms camera which won't plug into my stupid computer! Although I might be able to do it on the other computer which doesn't work but Ill try it wish me luck! XD XD XD Oh yeah, the first day we went riding and unfortunately Annika's (she is the little girl and her family that we were staying with...she is 7 i think) horse probably didn't know she was on because she weighs like nothing decided to roll over in the mud and Tim ( our guide) just barely got her up before the poor horse rolled over her! I was like screaming in my head while trying to get Floyd to not roll over on me also. Annika was so freaked out she didnt ride with us the rest of the way ;(  Tim is awesome. He was so fun to be around and it was really fun on the ride so now (whats with me?) I miss Tim. :D Okay well Colorado was fun and yeah so I think that is all I can think of to say right now..If I think of something else then I will make a post bout itz. Well luv ya! Text me Im so bored! School status: 10 more days! Peace! <3 :D -Heather
 

Stupid Earrings

August 5, 2010
Hey its Heather..again. :D Okay so do you agree with me that earrings should come in packets of three? I mean I don't know about you guys but I lose earrings all the time! Maybe its because I am such a clutz but I HATE losing earrings! It annoys me and I wish that earrings came in packets of three! It would make life so much easier! Peace! :D <3 -Heather
 

Did you ever notice?

August 4, 2010
Hey its Heather! Did you ever notice this? First of all, think about pie (no not the scrumptious treat we all love :D), the math term, PIE. 3.14 (estimated) right?Now think about this; imagine writing Pie backwards..... what I'm saying is, hold 3.14 up to your mirror. Doesn't it look like the word PIE?! The 4 is the P the 1 is the i and the 3 is the E! Haha, just figured that out a couple days ago! Ha, I know you probably already knew that but just throwing it out there! I miss everyone at school and i really want to go back! I can't believe I said that! I need to know my schedule just so that I can see what classes I have and who with! Text me! Peace! :D <3 -Heather
 

Older guys...

August 3, 2010
Hey its Heather. I saw Cameron yesterday at the pool..again. He seriously looks like Diego Forlan, the only way you can believe it is by coming over.. Haha. So imagine Diego Forlan a tiny bit skinnier and a little bit tanner without his head-band that Diego normally wears. That's Cameron. He's kind of cute, Jennifer has a little crush on him. I mean he's really nice and smart and hes cute but he's like 18 years old so I mean...thats crossing the line and goin a lot over it.... Its really wierd how guys that are way older seem to be more mature and cuter andsmarter and nicer and all that stuff... Idk...Anyway im goin over for a sleepover at Kira's so I gotta go! Peace! <3 :D - Heather
 

First post! <3 <3

August 2, 2010
Hey hey hey! This is my first post! Hope you check this website and look at my adventures! Today im gonna call my bff Melissa and Kira, so text me! Peace! -Heather <3    :D