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Like, really? I move over to watch a minute of T.V on my RollyChair. So I roll over. I sit there for 3 seconds, watching 3 seconds of that STUPID Garfield Show. 3 seconds and guess what? The sun comes sauntering over the house behind us and shines right in my face! Damn Sun. You know, I've never really showed a liking to the sun. But I've gotten used to it, living in...Arizona....
Does the world, like hate me or something. The sun, shining his light right in my face. I would say, "What have I done wrong?" But the answer to that would be; ManyThings.

See, in Arizona, I loved everyone so much. I still do. I know what they love and what they don't. I always knew the perfect gift for everyone, at least, I think I did. But see, here. Here, Target isn't helping me at all. Stupid, stupid, Target. So, freaking, expensive. So, much, stuff, to, choose, from. So, much, crap, not, to, choose. Ugh, I couldn't find anything for my 'friend's' birthday partayy tomorrow. Yeah, we are going to a 'trampoline place.' What would you think of when your friend was all "Yeah, for my birthday partayy we are going to a trampoline place." I mean, really. I have no idea what to expect. I don't even know if it should be fun. Should it? So, great. I now am so not confident about her birthday present, and so not confident about the partayy tomorrow. Ugh. This all started with Stupid Stupid. Target. :/

Hey, sorry, I haven't been posting in awhile. Probably because it was my friend's birthday, so I've been with her.

So, I hope you know my group of peeps. You don't? Awh, well you should. Honestly. Ahaha here is one reason(:
So, Rylee♥'s got 3 bucks right? So does, Madison. Madison. Madison H. H Madison. Still There. Right.There. What's gonna happen?
So, Madison<....3? and Rylee♥'s got 3  bucks. They disapear into the cafeteria and then return, with 9 packets of SpicyGoldfish!!! Omfg, it was soo funnayy! She said the lunch lady got so surprised, said she almost had a heart attack. Ahaha, then, you know what we all do? We chuck goldfish at people..Hey, who doesn't like goldfish right? Ah, I love my people. At least, most of 'em.(: Just trying to go, day by day.

So there you are. I remember when we were like this. I remember we were like best friends. Like Best Friends. Almost. We were like that for a longg time. A.Long.Time. We had too many good memories. I remember at 6th grade camp, You were my One and Only. We.Did.Everything.Together. Everything♥ It was almost like we were best friends. And then, just like this it stopped. It stopped just like that. And you just kind of ignored me. Ignored.Me. I didn't know why. I still don't. So we ignored eachother. Like nothing had ever happened, like, I didn't even know you. And you didn't know me. You went off with new 'friends' and I just was kinda left behind. Now, there you are, sitting across from me at lunch next to my really great friend. Having a good time, us laughing and talking like we were never apart. But in the same way, we can't look at each other like we used to. I can't look at you without seeing in your eyes that you are thinking the same thing as me. The same exact thing. Like, what are we doing here? Like, why did we need Rylee♥ To bring us back together? You think that just because you don't like your 'friends' anymore, means that you can hang out with my "group." Now what will you do to us, to my newest, greatest friend?  what will you do to her? I think she was like me, and if she is, how on the whole freaking earth will you abandon her, just like you abandoned me. But I get the strange feeling that you will. So, what's gonna happen next? Is this real? Or will you just walk away like you did? And now, sipping my DietPepsi, because I know, that's your favorite, I'm thinking and asking myself what's gonna happen. What will happen to us. Next Year. Highschool. Will we still be 'friends' ? What will happen? I don't know, and I can see it in your eyes, that you don't either. Do I still love you as much as I did? Do you?

Hi, so. In addition to my other post for today, I am making another one. Because I feel so Elated☼. Ahaha. Sho;

School is going so much better than it has been. So.Much.Betta. If only it was this good all the time. If only,

I love that movie. The movie holes. I think the guy who plays Zero, is ah-mazing! And..kinda cute? Ahaha, I'm also in love with Shia Lebouf. OhMyFuckingGawd he's amazing.They are both ah-mazing. I love them♥ Ahaha, Holes.

So how is yuh? My life was totally fly until I got online. Oh well, life ain't always fair. So yaw; by the way, since I am feeling so happy, I've decided to keep my blogs. For me. For you? Ohh, you'll never know. So, I'm keeping it. Keeping the blogs. Although, nobody talked to me about it. Nobody. I wish somebody had. Hey,  that's just another realization for me, telling me that nobody really cares about me. Nobody really reads my blogs. Nobody likes to talk to me. Kay, so maybe that isn't as true as it probably is, but. But. I'm keeping the blogs. For me. Because I am happy. Today was a happy day. And how can I delete myself from your lives on a happy day? I can't, and I'm not going to. For me. For you? No, for me. Or for you, whatever peels your banana. Happy Valentines Day my friends, and I hope I'm in such a good mood tomorrow. :)

Is there any reason I should stay on here? No there's not. I wish there was. Honestly, I wish there was. But there's not. I mean, the only person who blogs is Tatum, and I don't know her as much as I should. Facebook is just something that will take up my time, so I refuse to use it. Also, because, I can't bare to see my Arizona friends' statuses all the time. To see how much fun you guys are having brings me down because I, am, not. Not Loving Life, Not Having Fun. Missing Them, Hating Here.

Looking for a reason to stay. Give me one!

-Heather♥

Well hi. Yush, so. So, so so. I wish life was as flucking easy as it was back then. When all we had to worry about was getting poked by stupid retards they liked to call 'the cool people.' Why can't on Valentines Day, there be this whole nice trading cards type gathering. Where we all made Valentine boxes and brought in little cards with candies on them Small notes to those special ones. Why can't the guys we liked just get a little 'Anonymous' card, from us. Why can't there just be smiles and laughter, as we reach into our boxes or bags and pull out all those little folded up cards and see the coolest 3D ones, or the small ones with Lollipops stuck on them? Why can't we just be excited to go to school? Why can't we all just do what we did in 3rd grade where we went out and bought a pack of valentines with our favorite T.V show on them, and address the coolest ones, to our coolest people? No, we can't. We now have to go through the drama of middle school relationships. We have to let go, and bring back, and right now. It ain't going too well for me. Strongly considering quitting my blog. Should I just move on from my old life. And try to go on with my new one, even though, it's not working out too well for me.

Do you know what is gonna be the funnest thing in the world? Not.Really. Itz gonna be this Superbowl partayy we are having on Sundayy. And you know who with? No you don't. And you are now gonna wish you were not me. Which you aren't. You luckayy you...Kay,sho. We are having a partyy, with a bunch of my Dad's work friends. Now his work friends' children? They.Hate.Me. Hate me! Do you know how much fun that's gonna be? Not very!! Ugh, I should just lock my sister and I in my room, because I hate the two teams in the SuperBowl anyway, and just do a bunch of our stuff. Without Them. Except. "We" might go swimming. Joyy. Sarcasm..Yeah. Itz gonna suck. Expect many updates from it. I'll be on my phone all frigin dayy. Ugh. How is you? Go on kidzworld Itz super fun. I love my people. Your gonna love (haleebieber) and fionanotice.
-Heather

Hello!!! How are you? Me? I'm doing absolutely finnne,fly, and fantabulous. I'm having a absolutely perfect internet life; KW is my bff right now. So it is the end of January. Jennifer is 11 now. 11. You kidding me. 11. No, your not. She. Is. 11. Ohh woww. And as we get older, my friendships are starting to disappear. And new ones are starting to form, and the select few old ones are getting better and better. I think I'm losing friends, I'm losing my old personality, I'm losing they way I used to think. I'm changing my mind on who is cool and who is not. So who is? Have I figured it out yet? Naww, I haven't. I'm sad that by the time I figure it out, it will be too late. I'm scared of high school, although it is a wayy away, nervous. Don't Know Why. Exactly why I  need to be back in Arizona. :D  <3
-Heather

Heyo! Wellies, Hello there ;) So I'ma back..again. LOL I was gonna post stuff from when I was gone but hey, I'm too lazy, so you will just have to think about how my Christmas was :D Although I did go to DisneyLand, which was super duper fun!!! OmG so I found this super coolio girl on KW you gotta go check her out [ fionanotice ] Sho sho sho, It was my sishta's birthday on Saturday. We went to the zoo and then to the Elephant Bar for dinner. It was soo much fun. I can't believe it, she is 11..already! Really? Just rewind and .Stop. <Eleven?> You've gotta be kidding me. We are growing up wayyy too fast. Especially her. Am I missing something? Everyone is getting older and I feel like I have to race to catch up. Literally, racing.  This year is going by soo fast, and honestly, I feel like I'm missing something...XD Love ya! :D <3
-Heather

Jello! Haha, will you people please post? I am! Hehe xD But guess what!? I won't be posting for while. Why? I am banned from the computer for a month. Sucks, but life goes on :) So sorry if I don't post for a while. Check my other bloggie!! Gotta go, Love ya! Peace :D <3
-Heather

Wellies! Hello there ;) So I'm starting to like Greek stuph. I ♥ Mama Mia and now Greek Food! It was a Girl's Night Out last night with Jennifer, mommy, and I. My daddy's off to the 'Dunes.' Have fun daddy! Anyway we went to Daphne's Greek Food. T'was sooo good. Made another post yesterday scroll down to see it! Hey and by the way if you are reading my blog can you please just post a random comment in my chat box in the Home Page, just like 'Hi' or something I really don't care. I just want to know that my blog is being read. You don't have you put your name or anything. Thanks!
-Heather

Jello! So it was our dance recital today. Can I say that it didn't go too well. Dancing in front of the whole middle school is not as scary as it sounds and I was not that nervous but....okay I'm just gonna say it; Those freaking dudes laughed at us! I don't know if they were laughing at our dancing which is soo stupid, I guess most of the guys think that a bunch of girls dancing on stage is stupid, while we..we love it. Maybe they were laughing at one of our songs. One of our songs has the word 'sex' in it. Which the teachers blocked out in the song. The immaturity in my school is completely over the top because they all snickered and sneered when that word was blocked out. What a bunch of loserez! LOL Oh yeah, and you do NOT want to know how much make-up we put on today. You.Do.Not. Ugh I felt like a doll! My face felt plastered! And half of those girls put that stuff on every day! How Stupid! I cannot imagine putting all that on in the morning and feeling like that all day. I personally think make up is stupid at this age anyway but not that my opinion matters in this world :D Love ya!! Peace! :D <3 -Heather

Hello! I just watched Tatum's new video of her and Marrissa. I love it haha. So I have a friend, well a couple friends actually. Who uh...lets just say that they think that they can sing or dance but...honestly...they can't. Every time they do it in front of a couple people or out at lunch they will dance or sing and ..honestly, it is really embarrassing. Sometimes if they are over at my house and they sing or dance (especially sing) it is really annoying and hard to listen or watch. The worst thing about it, is that they don't know it. They think that they are pretty good and aren't afraid of showing their "talent" to me. I really don't want them to go out and do it in front of a large crowd of important people or something you know? I don't want them to do that. But what do I say? Do I just come flat out, or what? I really don't want to hurt them but what can I do? How can you do it without hurting them? Oh my gosh I'm freaked out. Also, I am doing this secret Santa thing with people and I really don't like half of them. I don't know what to do! Well life is on the edge right now, what about you? Love ya! Peace! :D <33 -Heather

Hello! It was raining today. Raining. Rrrraining. Still is. Rrrraining. Well anyway, I love laughter. Laughing. Live laugh love. I love that sound when a whole classroom is full of kids laughing. I like the light giggling of the girls and the deep but soft laughing of guys. I love how when a group of 7th graders laugh for a while at something funny they start to laugh harder, and harder so that the whole room is cracking up and looking at eachother and smiling. And loving life and loving eachother. I wish the world could do this. I wish instead of a classroom it would be countries, continents, planets. I wish instead of 7th graders it would be presidents, governors, regular people. But thats not about to happen is it? Well...oh yeah and I love those class clowns that start it all. Hehe {That class experience was based on what happened 7th period, Thursday...I love 7th period} Love ya! Peace! :D <3 -Heather

Hello! This really wierd dude asked out my friend today ( he literally was yelling at her "rylee will you go out with me?!!) I felt super bad for her cuz hes really wierd. Hehe. Poor Rylee. Anyway so today I performed my monologue which went well. :D People seemed to like it..so did my drama teacher. I was super nervous, but I got it done. Phew its over! Anyway so I was thinking after what people thought of me. What do they think when they are watching someone act. Its hard to tell what I think. I am questioning if they were scrutinizing my physical being or were they listening to my vocal expression, watching my facial expressions, or my pantomimes?? What do you look at and notice in a person when they are acting..or even talking to you. What do you notice in a person when you first meet them? Wish me luck on fitness testing... D: lol i hate fitness testing. Stupid mile... lol Peace! SNAP WRAPPLE BOB   SKIZZORS!  CARMACK! :D <3 -Heather

Hello! Sorry I've been super busy this week and weekend..I really need to post hehe.So what other to post about but stupid weekend homework!! Ugh I HATE having weekend homework! Stupid teacherz! LOL just kiddin! I had to revise this essay thing and type it in the right format, which isnt much but ztill! Its like "its the weekend people! gimme a break!" we do not need work on the frigin weekend! LOL I very passionate bout this ztuff hehe. Dont you hate having weekend homework? It sucks to have to do things when there is no school. I also hate long term projects because me, personally, will leave it untill the last week and do it. Sometimes not a good thing..heehee. Sometimes I just hate school in general. Sometimes I love it... but mostly I hate it.. haha. Peace! :D <3 -Heather