Woah, I'm actually blogging two days in a row. What a good blogger I am! Ha, let's just forget that last counterfactual statement and move on. Because of the 'high school exit exam' that the sophomores (and some juniors and seniors) are taking, the rest of the school don't start until 12:05 pm. This means that we have only two and a half hours of school, plus we actually get to sleep in. Hence, this morning was absolute heaven. I got up and actually ate breakfast. After getting dressed and setting up my backpack, I watched Harry Potter like the loyal potterhead I am. God, I freaking love the phenomenon. They are the most perfect books, with the most perfect movies, the most perfect characters, and the most perfect fandom. I can't watch any movie out of all eight without shedding tears. Even the smallest thing, such as Professor Trelawney almost getting kicked out of Hogwards in the Order of the Phoenix, makes my eyes well up. It's the story, and the development of characters, and the lessons learned, and the hardships that make it such an escape from reality. I will forever worship Severus Snape and I will forever long to be in the presence of Fred and George Weasley. People tend to judge the series without even taking a moment to read and watch the movies and discover everything that the fans have discovered. This is becoming a sort-of Harry Potter tribute and trust me, I will do a real post on it later, but there is a more important matter. This more important matter is something I've been struggling with a for a while and I'm almost certain that I've blogged about it before. I hate blogging about guys all the time, but who else is going to listen to my problems without judging me? If you read my previous post, you would think that I fell for that guy... well, no I didn't. It's super complicated but I'm having problems choosing who to like. The guy in my previous post is out of the picture for obvious reasons that I explain in that post, and I'm focusing down on two guys. This happens all the time with me and it's obvious that I've never really really liked anyone before. I was never really really into my exboyfriend but shh... Anyway, I'm not going to describe both guys and I know that I don't have to like anyone, but I absolutely hate getting distracted in class, thinking about guys all the time. I want to either have a crush, or not have a crush and get it over with. I'm not even concerned with whether either one of the guys likes me or not. I sound like such a sixth grader when I talk about this but I need to fucking figure out my head. I overthink all the time. Overthinking should be some sort of disease because I need to get some treatment for this shit. Sometimes all I do is sit in class and think about everything. Some of the things I think about have no relevance at all or they are too complicated to think about in the middle of geometry. Sometimes I can honestly feel my brain pounding with irrelevance and I'm sick of it. I need something to occupy my mind and I need it fast. More later,
Heather.