Well, I just sat here for about ten minutes looking out my window and listening to birds chirping. I feel like I'm about eighty years old saying this, but it's nice and overcast outside and the birds were singing such beautiful songs so I decided to title this post as so. However, we all know how I never end up writing about what my title is. Today, thank god, is Friday. This year is going by so fast. I can't even remember February, let alone January. I always hate second semesters of school because I tend to do worse in my classes. Of course, that's what is going on right now and I hate myself for it. I don't know what happens. I try just as hard as first semester, and it's not that second semester is hard. I guess I just get caught up in the fact that I'm in the home stretch of getting out of prison... oops, I mean school. This semester is going to suck though, I can feel it. So it's my "Wifey-versary" next weekend with my best friend. It's also mi madre cumpleanos, therefore we probably won't do anything. Even if it wasn't my mother's birthday, I'm not even sure if we'd do anything. I know I'm losing her, and she tells me that I am still her best friend but I don't feel it anymore. We haven't hung out one-on-one in a while and when I'm at school she just ignores me most of the time. I don't want to push myself on her because I know she has more in common with other people, but I just wish she would tell me that she doesn't want to be my best friend anymore. Maybe she does want to be, but it's that thing that happens when you don't have any motivation towards someone. There's no momentum from our two years strong friendship anymore. I still want her to be my best friend for all of eternity, but she isn't feeling it anymore and I can tell. Sometimes school just makes you feel worse about these kinds of things. Like when you're sitting at lunch and getting ignored, or if guys think they're above you, or if you're in class seriously considering walking out. I'm so glad it's the weekend and there will be no drama for these two days. I'm going to see a musical tomorrow, and then just relax on Sunday. Overthinking everything gives me a hole in my stomach and every day I feel it getting bigger and bigger and I need some way to fill it up. By the way, I'm thinking of keeping this layout for a while. Change is good right? At least for a stupid teen blog.
More later.